Well....what do I say?

My daughter, M, was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes yesterday. I suspected it for a couple weeks now. That's not hard to admit. What is hard to admit is I was waiting until I was ready to face it instead of getting her the help she needed. :(

They admitted her immediately and transported her by ambulance to Children's Dallas. She's being very brave. She's hydrated and they're sticking her with insulin to regulate her blood sugar.

I still haven't had my moment. I was talking to someone last night and said, "I'm not ready yet. If I start to cry, it'll be too real." The reply? "Jeannie, it's already real. You have no problem speaking your thoughts....let go and let your heart speak for a change." You would've thought that would've broke me, but it didn't. I'm still trying to keep it together. I can't lose it. I just can't. That someone doesn't read my blog but I just wanted to say, I will, I promise, just not right now.

Here are some quotes from my 12 year old yesterday and some talks we had throughout the long day in the hospital.

Me: I'm so sorry.

M: Is it bad?

Me: No, but it changes everything.

M: Oh mom, it could be Cancer. I can deal with a little change.

Check her out! She's like me with her positive outlook....where the hell did mine go?

M: Diet soda?

Me: Yep!

M: Gross.

Me: Oh sweetie, do you know how hot your momma is gonna be with your new diet?

M: Yah, people are gonna ask you your secret and you can do your pose and tell em, my daughter got diabetes.

Me: Yep!

I hope everybody Thursday is good. Today is going to be information overload for both M and I. The good news is they won't let us leave the hospital without knowing everything there is to know about diabetes. I feel very comfortable knowing that. I just wish we were doing it for knowledge. I know this isn't the end of the world, I just wish it wasn't M's world now.

If I've offended you or expressed anything you don't agree with, don't worry, I'll probably do it again.


  1. yep..ur lives changed in the instant u heard...it is diabetes...she will be able to carry this with her because she has such a strong example of a mom who always puts her first...het at least now u have an excuse for always carrying a cooler with u!!! i will still need a rx for syringes tho..:
    M looks a bit suspicious:)

  2. As a Mom you just wish you could take their place. Your daughter sounds like a tough little 12 year old. I know you are not religious but your family is in my thoughts and prayers.