Short one....

...cause I'm afraid of what I really wanna say.

As I was trying to leave work yesterday, I was walking in front of a guy that was on the phone. I'm not much of an eavesdropper but he was right behind me. I heard him tell whoever he was on the phone with, "As soon as I get outta here, I'll be right over. I love you baby." My first instinct wasn't, "Awwww, how sweet." My first instinct was just to smile. But then, as he passed me by, he walked up to one of our cashiers and say, "So what time do you think you'll be home?"

Yah, what???

Now I don't even know any co-workers outide of the pharmacy. I don't really wanna. I'll say hi and maybe smile at em but I've got way too many faces to remember anyway. So I don't know this cashier but I do slow my walk a little to overhear him tell her, "I'm gonna go home and sleep for a bit. I love you baby."

What a douchebag!

And this isn't a quandary or anything. I ain't gonna tell this girl, who I prolly couldn't pick out in a line-up anything but the word love obviously was like breathing for that guy. Saying, "I love you," to a person that believes in the word, love, is probably too important for it just to be spewed like vomit. I love yellow cake and chocolate frosting. I love the people I work with. I love boy short underwear.

Does my throwing the word around like that make me a douchebag? I don't think so but I could care less if it does though.

I also love my kids and my husband. I tell them everyday before they go to school, before he goes to work, when they go to bed, and when he gets home in the morning. I feel I didn't just vomit that word, love. I mean it with every fiber of my being. I know the hypocrisy of it and I choose to use it at my will.

I love my family, my friends and my life. I do know this though, I would never tell my husband that I love him and turn around to tell another man the same thing. It wouldn't be right.

Huh, I guess I'm not a douchebag after all. Have a great Tuesday everybody! I love you! :)

If I've offended you or expressed anything you don't agree with, don't worry, I'll probably do it again.

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